yeah - the intensity of episodes does not seem to change...in other words - whatever part of my body is being "sucked in"/dematerialized never gets past a few square inches to a foot square before i shake free of it. what is changing somewhat is my fear...i am still pretty freaked out, but it i do not seem as horridly freaked out as the regularlity of episodes is pretty frequent (several times a week - sometimes a couple times a night). this in and of itself has me a bit freaked out...what if i become complacent and more of me is "sucked in" because i am more "relaxed'. I have even suggested to my wife, that i allow my whole body to be transmutated - she said to be sure to hold onto her hand just in case she needs to pull me out. i have spoken to a few people about this - therapist types. anyone have a recomendation? maybe a shaman to exorcise this out of me?
rocc, as someone whose read a lot about this kind of thing, talked to many others and experienced it to some degree - I think on one occasion I was the "target" of someone malevolent who THINKS he is a sorcerer - I just have a few thoughts to offer.
Firstly, do not fear them. I think fear is their KEY to your MIND which is really what they're aiming for. Fear means you are not in control because your fear controls you so control your fear instead. You will find this very empowering when you realise you do not fear them - or anything.
To the greatest extent you can ignore it/them - it's true that what you FOCUS ON EXPANDS. They'll make you paranoid, neurotic, FEARFUL get it? Swat them away like a bug. Try NOT to think about it/them let alone focus on it.
Use your thoughts in some way to screen them out/shield you - whatever works for you. Like I say IGNORING them works really well. Ignoring them shows they have NO POWER OVER YOU.
Focus instead on how powerful YOU are, how powerful YOUR thoughts are, how powerful YOUR intentions are........really, feel the power of the warrior WITHIN you. I bet you feel that awakening already right, by the sounds of what you are saying? Tap the warrior, tap YOUR power because I promise you, you are more powerful than them, you are more powerful than you know....
YOU can break the power of their illusion, because that's what they're trying to get you with, an ILLUSION.
These are my thoughts/feelings anyway rocc. I hope they might be of some help.........it would be nice if others could offer some thoughts/insights too.
Be strong. You are strong. Live strong - and they'll fade away.